Recently life is throwing me curve balls I can't hit. I am just swinging and missing over and over until frustration takes over and a burst into an emotional maelstrom. I feel completely out of control. It is one of those times I need one thing to go right, but one thing. If that job had come through, and David from David's Hotdogs had not lied. (by the way I am NEVER going there again). He seriously asked me to give leave on my other job to work for him just to tell me he wasn't using me- three days before I was to start work. So as you can imagine I am a little crushed. If my school didn't require a $2000 down-payment that cannot be covered by student loans. If my car wasn't making noises when it turned on. If my parents weren't arguing and broke. If I could just call the one person I want to talk to without getting him in trouble or being worried I would get yelled at... '
If one thing were going right it may be a lot easier. But all of these things are happening at once- and I am sorry I am not amazing. I can't stand all the pressure at once and it crushing me. I need one thing to go right. Just one- that is all I am asking. But guess what that isn't gonna happen for a while. So if I seem like I am miserable- I apologize.
Right now, things are awful.
Eww, summer's end. Really. Everything goes nuts for three months, you finally get settled into something, and then suddenly everything changes again. Ugh...
ReplyDeleteHi Wren, it's the long lost Lizzey. Bummed that I haven't talked to you lately - you can always call me, I'd be more than happy to listen. And I'm really, really sorry that everything's awful at the moment - seems like a lot of people I know are going through the school scramble/life difficulties combo right now.